I'm supposed to have been diligently working on lyrics for the past week or so, but these few days I haven't gotten anything down at all! OTL Just when I need them most, the words seem to stop flowing out. Well, except when it comes to posting here apparently.
Okay fine, I can't hold it in any longer, I'm going to say that I've been lazy this time. I always try to make time to write something down, but after that I seem to have something else to do! Take today for example, I ended up cutting labels for some files at work the whole night. In fact, I'm not done with the whole pile of them, but I think you get my drift.
Maybe I'm just afraid that when I sit down to think about the lyrics, I get stuck again and end up tearing pieces of paper up instead of writing stuff. RAWR!!!
(Actually I just have a weird habit of tearing paper up I think. >.> <.<)
On another note, I finally went to see the doctor about the ingrown toenail. Thankfully this time it isn't very bad, and a special cream should do the trick. It still looks rather ugly though, and it still hurts when I walk for too long.
I'm so sorry Joanna, I promise I'll come up with something soon! (T.T)
26.5.06
looks ugly
It seems like I'm going to have to make a trip to the doctor's tomorrow.
While I was trimming my nails today, I noticed that the toe that seemed to be hurting a little bit whenever I walk was a little different today. At first glance it seemed a little bit "dead" by its appearance, and then upon closer inspection, I found that it looked like there was some fluid there.
And then I realised that the toenail was growing into the flesh. Yes, it's an ingrown toenail all right!
I'm not sure you all want to see a picture of the toe right now though so I won't be posting any, curious as the rest of you may be. Maybe after I get it treated though...
While I was trimming my nails today, I noticed that the toe that seemed to be hurting a little bit whenever I walk was a little different today. At first glance it seemed a little bit "dead" by its appearance, and then upon closer inspection, I found that it looked like there was some fluid there.
And then I realised that the toenail was growing into the flesh. Yes, it's an ingrown toenail all right!
I'm not sure you all want to see a picture of the toe right now though so I won't be posting any, curious as the rest of you may be. Maybe after I get it treated though...
21.5.06
excuse me, but do we know each other...?
Bought dinner at Tampines Mall today together with my family.
While waiting for my sister's spaghetti order to be ready, I was spotted by a few of my juniors back from the VJC days (at least I think they were from VJC...). But wht surprised me was that they actually knew me and called out to me, even though I was wearing my glasses that I think makes me look really different.
BENNY! *smile and wave*
Being in the state of surprise (I shan't say shock because it really didn't have anything bad in it.) that I was, I only managed to come up with this reaction...
0_0! o_0...
>.<" On hindsight, I can see why they were so amused. Could have flashed my million dollar smile and looked friendly, instead of coming across like a bespectacled gorilla.
Bumping into these friengers (friend + stranger) are really interesting situations aren't they? Some people just have the most hilarious reactions. Unfortunately, maybe I'm one of these people. T_T...
While waiting for my sister's spaghetti order to be ready, I was spotted by a few of my juniors back from the VJC days (at least I think they were from VJC...). But wht surprised me was that they actually knew me and called out to me, even though I was wearing my glasses that I think makes me look really different.
BENNY! *smile and wave*
Being in the state of surprise (I shan't say shock because it really didn't have anything bad in it.) that I was, I only managed to come up with this reaction...
0_0! o_0...
>.<" On hindsight, I can see why they were so amused. Could have flashed my million dollar smile and looked friendly, instead of coming across like a bespectacled gorilla.
Bumping into these friengers (friend + stranger) are really interesting situations aren't they? Some people just have the most hilarious reactions. Unfortunately, maybe I'm one of these people. T_T...
20.5.06
it's an outpour
It's not a sleepless night for me tonight. Actually I find it really easy for me to fall asleep sometimes, all I need to do is just lie down for long enough, and I won't even know that I closed my eyes.
But tonight I've been staying up thinking about a lot of things. It seems as though inside me there's a lot of turmoil and confusion going around. Maybe it's because I'm coming to some sort of crossroad in life, and there's a lot of growing up to be done soon.
Have you ever had the thought that you just don't know how you are? For example, you come up with a situation that you're sure you've come across before. But you find it hard to do things the way you did them before, because all of a sudden it doesn't feel right to do so, and a lot of indecision ensues. I think most of us should be reaching this stage soon. To be honest, I still haven't come to a conclusion how best should I act from now on, so I guess I'll still be stuck in limbo for now. But I think I have to make a decision soon about how I want to act, talk and think from now on.
Also, lately I've gotten the feeling that somehow I'm less able to connect with others these days. The other day I was talking with one of my friends (this time I don't think I'll be putting names) about our future directions. When I said I still wasn't able to see myself 5 years from now (partly due to this confusion I'm having), my friend told me that I'd only be doing 2 things: studying and working. I felt a little insulted to be honest, as if my common sense was being questioned. But I guess I look at things differently. To me, the future I was concerned about involved more of my dreams, whereas for most people it would be about their lives. I might be too naive in still holding on to some dreams and ideals so tightly though, but without these, I don't think I'd have the inspiration and courage to work so hard in life.
Actually, life itself can be akin to sculpting a sandcastle on the beach.
If you build your sandcastle too far away from the sea, you probably won't get a very nicely sculpted one because it'll be hard to get sea water to moisten/harden/shapen it. On the other hand, sandcastles built closer to the sea will be subjected to the enormous forces of waves crashing onto the beach.
We can compare the waves to the overwhelming forces of the outside social environment we are subjected to everyday. (Subjected sounds like a very harsh word though don't you think?) It is everywhere, and try as we might we cannot avoid it.
However, to sculpt a beautiful sandcastle, we still need a pair of skilled and inspired hands. They will be the most crucial means by which the sandcastle actually takes its form. Someone who is skilled/creative/inspired enough will come up with wonderful pieces of art by manipulating the sand and water to his fancy, whereas someone who isn't will find it hard to come up with anything that has a form.
These hands are actually our minds and our heart in process. We go through education and learn to think for ourselves. Those who have learnt well will be able to mould their lives into something that's fulfilling and enriching by taking in the things that they may find helpful from the external environment, whereas those who haven't may find that something might always be lacking in their lives, unable to stand up against the crushing forces of nature and society and having to "go with the flow".
But either way, we still need valuable lessons from the external environment to enable us to grow up into fine adults with enriching lives, or we may end up like the sandcastle that's too far inland: inherently unstable.
Right now I'm feeling a bit like the second case to be honest, being flooded and unable to handle the pressures and forces of the external environment. Yet, I'm still optimistic, because I still have these hands that can mould, don't I? In the end, how I'm going to live in future depends on the decisions I make, and the values I treasure.
I think that's all I have for tonight. Hopefully it's food for thought for all of you, but if it isn't, you can always look at the previous entries!
But tonight I've been staying up thinking about a lot of things. It seems as though inside me there's a lot of turmoil and confusion going around. Maybe it's because I'm coming to some sort of crossroad in life, and there's a lot of growing up to be done soon.
Have you ever had the thought that you just don't know how you are? For example, you come up with a situation that you're sure you've come across before. But you find it hard to do things the way you did them before, because all of a sudden it doesn't feel right to do so, and a lot of indecision ensues. I think most of us should be reaching this stage soon. To be honest, I still haven't come to a conclusion how best should I act from now on, so I guess I'll still be stuck in limbo for now. But I think I have to make a decision soon about how I want to act, talk and think from now on.
Also, lately I've gotten the feeling that somehow I'm less able to connect with others these days. The other day I was talking with one of my friends (this time I don't think I'll be putting names) about our future directions. When I said I still wasn't able to see myself 5 years from now (partly due to this confusion I'm having), my friend told me that I'd only be doing 2 things: studying and working. I felt a little insulted to be honest, as if my common sense was being questioned. But I guess I look at things differently. To me, the future I was concerned about involved more of my dreams, whereas for most people it would be about their lives. I might be too naive in still holding on to some dreams and ideals so tightly though, but without these, I don't think I'd have the inspiration and courage to work so hard in life.
Actually, life itself can be akin to sculpting a sandcastle on the beach.
If you build your sandcastle too far away from the sea, you probably won't get a very nicely sculpted one because it'll be hard to get sea water to moisten/harden/shapen it. On the other hand, sandcastles built closer to the sea will be subjected to the enormous forces of waves crashing onto the beach.
We can compare the waves to the overwhelming forces of the outside social environment we are subjected to everyday. (Subjected sounds like a very harsh word though don't you think?) It is everywhere, and try as we might we cannot avoid it.
However, to sculpt a beautiful sandcastle, we still need a pair of skilled and inspired hands. They will be the most crucial means by which the sandcastle actually takes its form. Someone who is skilled/creative/inspired enough will come up with wonderful pieces of art by manipulating the sand and water to his fancy, whereas someone who isn't will find it hard to come up with anything that has a form.
These hands are actually our minds and our heart in process. We go through education and learn to think for ourselves. Those who have learnt well will be able to mould their lives into something that's fulfilling and enriching by taking in the things that they may find helpful from the external environment, whereas those who haven't may find that something might always be lacking in their lives, unable to stand up against the crushing forces of nature and society and having to "go with the flow".
But either way, we still need valuable lessons from the external environment to enable us to grow up into fine adults with enriching lives, or we may end up like the sandcastle that's too far inland: inherently unstable.
Right now I'm feeling a bit like the second case to be honest, being flooded and unable to handle the pressures and forces of the external environment. Yet, I'm still optimistic, because I still have these hands that can mould, don't I? In the end, how I'm going to live in future depends on the decisions I make, and the values I treasure.
I think that's all I have for tonight. Hopefully it's food for thought for all of you, but if it isn't, you can always look at the previous entries!
17.5.06
it's going to be a late night
As you may all know the UEFA Champions League final will be played at 2.45am tonight. I'm going to stay up with my dad to watch it, so it's going to be a long night.
The worst thing about it is that I'm already yawning! \(`o`)/
After reading last night's post, I realised I haven't found a lot of lovely readers...*looks at number of comments* -_-
Trying to rebuild my media library now, but the uploading is taking verrrrryyyyy loooonnngggg indeed. 81/300 now, and yet to reach the videos!
Maybe I'll sneak in a few more posts before the match actually starts. I know I'll be that bored waiting.
The worst thing about it is that I'm already yawning! \(`o`)/
After reading last night's post, I realised I haven't found a lot of lovely readers...*looks at number of comments* -_-
Trying to rebuild my media library now, but the uploading is taking verrrrryyyyy loooonnngggg indeed. 81/300 now, and yet to reach the videos!
Maybe I'll sneak in a few more posts before the match actually starts. I know I'll be that bored waiting.
posting in the darkness...!
My PC's hard disk got corrupted a few hours ago and I (well actually my dad...-_-) had to reformat it to get it up and running again. It all happened while the computer was running too, so you could imagine my shock when the screen turned black after I went to take a sip.
0_0 T_T!!!!!!!
Good thing there are still 2 other working computers in this house. I decided to test out the new network card that my dad bought the other day, and plugged it into the laptop before bringing it into my room.
I haven't left the room for the past 4 hours. (>.>) (<.<)
Had logged on to Blogger to make a post about what's been going on recently, but I'm sooooo tired now. \(`O`)/
See you later, all my lovely readers. =)
0_0 T_T!!!!!!!
Good thing there are still 2 other working computers in this house. I decided to test out the new network card that my dad bought the other day, and plugged it into the laptop before bringing it into my room.
I haven't left the room for the past 4 hours. (>.>) (<.<)
Had logged on to Blogger to make a post about what's been going on recently, but I'm sooooo tired now. \(`O`)/
See you later, all my lovely readers. =)
8.5.06
election fever
The past few days has seen election fever hold Singapore tight in its grip. And as the dust settles, let us not forget that what we really should have voted for, or will vote for in future elections, is the development of Singapore on a whole. Not just your elevator, your block, your district, but your country.
I hope we haven't lost sight of this:
OUR NATIONAL PLEDGE
We the citizens of Singapore,
Pledge ourselves as one united people.
Regardless of race, language or religion,
To build a democratic society,
Based on justice and equality,
So as to achieve happiness, prosperity,
And progess for our nation.
And in Chinese:
我们是新加坡公民，
誓约不分宗族，言语，宗教，
团结一致。
建设公正平等的民主社会，
并未实现国家之幸福，
繁荣与进步，
共同努力。
Please do keep in mind the ideals that one of our "founding fathers" Mr. Rajaratnam had as he penned our pledge.
The elections may have divided us during this period, with party lines being drawn. But now that it's been done and dusted, let us work harder tomorrow, with the vision of building a better Singapore and a better home for ourselves and our children.
I hope we haven't lost sight of this:
OUR NATIONAL PLEDGE
We the citizens of Singapore,
Pledge ourselves as one united people.
Regardless of race, language or religion,
To build a democratic society,
Based on justice and equality,
So as to achieve happiness, prosperity,
And progess for our nation.
And in Chinese:
我们是新加坡公民，
誓约不分宗族，言语，宗教，
团结一致。
建设公正平等的民主社会，
并未实现国家之幸福，
繁荣与进步，
共同努力。
Please do keep in mind the ideals that one of our "founding fathers" Mr. Rajaratnam had as he penned our pledge.
The elections may have divided us during this period, with party lines being drawn. But now that it's been done and dusted, let us work harder tomorrow, with the vision of building a better Singapore and a better home for ourselves and our children.
2.5.06
i'm not procrastinating...
But it seems as though my JLPT plans have to be pushed back one year. At the rate I'm going, I'll be missing out on the prep course for JLPT 4 which starts in July. Will probably have to wait for the one conducted next year.
Then again, I could do away with JLPT 4 and skip straight to JLPT 3, but that might prove beyond me...
*EDIT* Being the usual silly self, I forgot that I can actually pick up 1 out of the 392847948573209587 JLPT self-study books out there.
頑張ります！
Then again, I could do away with JLPT 4 and skip straight to JLPT 3, but that might prove beyond me...
*EDIT* Being the usual silly self, I forgot that I can actually pick up 1 out of the 392847948573209587 JLPT self-study books out there.
頑張ります！
1.5.06
love for curry rice
It's been a long time my old friend. I've missed you a lot since the last time we met.
いただきます。。。\(*^.^*)/
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